right here right now

shoreline

at the shoreline
figuring what to do next
with the waves crawling at my feet
as i wait for the waves to crash on me
and suffocate me
as they build walls around me
will the sand eat me
as my feet get stuck
will i fall deeper
and find myself at wit's end
alas
i will not find out
for i shall overcome
and move forth
for what is
will soon be what once was
and i will be
on dry land
as i await the next shoreline
and know

oblivious

holler

isn't it amazing how music affects us?
mad, the way some words put together can just make ur day sometimes
sure some might say there's other things to music
such as
the soft strums of the piano strings
the pluckings of an acoustic guitar
the beats of a drum
but what gets me the most is the words
words
so funny how one word said one way make such a profound sense
and left to the perverse
turned into a joke
then u have techno
just nonsensical music made to make u move
lyricists and dj's should get together and rave this world

the other thing that i find simply amazing are scents
they say that scents actually stimulate the most memory
so can't remember a thing
but can remember how it smells

i guess memory is a huge thing
we've all read books where people ponder about the meaning of their existence
are we just people?
shells of life
without any character
as all of us are moulded by society into being a character
and if so
what differentiates us?
it's just like the evolutionary theory
some get to evolve and be stronger
and some just die....

but memories
they're something else altogether

have a friend who can't remember much of her childhood
i pity her
it's how i would imagine a clone would feel
living a life
unsure of how u got there in the first place.....

she started a journal to jot down her day to day events

how private are blogs?
imagine if u only gave ur blog address to specific people
people u wouldn't mind talking deep profound stuff to
people u know won't judge u if u told them these kind of things
but
if this people are truly how u perceive them to be
why not just tell them face to face?
is it because u do not trust them enough
afraid of being judged?
being taken as the person with so many problems
that u just blow out of proportion
because thats how we like our problems
blown out of proportion
then we wouldn't give two nuts about what a stranger thinks
funny isn't it?
we care so much about the way our world looks at us
that is our friends, family, acquaintances
but we can completely ignore a stranger's comments
tell yourself
he doesn't know me
he doesn't understand jack shit
he shouldn't judge me
but then again
u don't want ur friends to judge u honestly
what then?

today's message was brought to you by the word : POEMS

what was meant

stitches

a stitch,
for every time i've thought of you,
a stitch,
for all the times i've missed you,
a stitch,
for every time i've kissed you.
a stitch,
for all the times i've held you.
a stitch,
for every moment that i've loved you.
one more stitch,
for every second i'll love you.
how many stitches i've sown,
no one can tell,
how long i've been stitching,
no one knows.
one thing's for sure,
for every thing i've stitched for,
i would stitch for eternity.
for you,
i would stitch,
forever more

stars are blind

wooleeleelooloo

man
been feeling so out of place lately
like i've not been myself
doing things i would not have expected to do in like a gaberjillion years
funny how expectations change eh
like 5 years ago
u kinda set your mind onto something
and tell urself
promise and swear
that u wud never ever succumb to doin such a thing
and now its all different
do expectations mature as we mature
or were we immature to think such a thing not possible?
then again some might say its staying true to your principles
holding strong to your integrity

in that case i don't own nuts

don't u just love horoscopes?
everybody wants to be able to see how their day will go
how their love life will fare that day
how much money they're gonna earn
who doesn't love horoscopes?
what if
u wake up
and just know its gonna be one of those days
like pissy and everything's stuffed up kinda days
then u read the papers
oh
capricorn
its gonna be a fantastic day
all the honeys will holler
you'll get a 5 digit pay increment
and your sex life will be the bomb
whoo
does that change things?
amazing
having said that
u tink horoscopes can affect the way u do stuff?
take for instance
there's this helluva thing that u gotta do
and u know u gotta do it
but u just dont know how to
and then
the stars say its good to do it
u just force urself to do it
cos u're afraid u may never get the right time again

man
who started star reading in the first place


today's message was brought to you by the word : SOOPERKYUTE

ironies

hey there

wanted to post one up yesterday....but didn't
believe it or not i tink i'm actually liking this thing
hehehhehehee

you wanna know something funny?
after the last post, i was wondering if i would remember how to login again
surprisingly i didn't
i opened a few other browsers and tried to login from there
then they told me i couldn't log in as i was already logged in
so i just closed everything then tried
lo and behold.....

i couldn't log in
its not so much of couldn't
more like didn't know how to
tink i spent about an hour trying to knock through
and turns out i've just been clicking the wrong link everytime i send for username and stuff
then it dawned on me
there's actually more stuff behind the blue link they send u
if any of u are lost u can try and ask for username at the login page when u ask for a lost password
so having done that
the email came with the info i need
and fun fact of the day
i now know how to login to apples.....

nevertheless
it wouldn't make sense for me to keep two blogs up
especially when you're not posting on one
so i'm officially gonna delete that blog soon
haih

looking back at it
i guess it's pretty much the same in life
when u give up on something
and decide to start anew
would u actually drop everything just to gain back what was lost
surely there are other factors involved
but would u put convenience over everything else?
forget about pride so that u can move on?
what if the only one who stand to lose anything is you
would you step aside?
after all.....
the snow of winter needs to melt for the first buds of spring to bloom......

but then again when is it ever that simple

just don't think for a second
not be paranoid towards what others might think
not wonder about what-ifs
not feel like more could..would...should have been done
literally not feeling?
is that the same as not thinking?
without pain would there be joy?
and if i remove all joy, would we know of sorrow?

last question


is there privacy in a blog?

today's message was brought to you by the word : LEGS