depreciation

oh woe is me
the victim of a depreciation

isn't it amazing how
you can just look at something
and see its value in a way that no one else understands?
see the worth that is beyond its outward appearance
see how important it can be
how great the potential for it
the vastness of how far it can reach within your heart
and think that you'd be willing
to bend over backwards to attain it
achieve it
grasp it

to even just touch

but lo and behold
here comes the difference
the second opinion
the worry of what the public might think
the look on your face when you realise its not as ideal as you think
the backlash of gossip
the burn of knowing you jumped too soon
judged to early
not out of prejudice
but out of hope

and as beauty was once in the eye of the beholder
the value that once was in that eye
has all but whittled away
to be left with the impression of beauty of another

and
to have left something depreciated so
to have hurt the feelings of one that was appreciated
to cut it down at its knees
and bring its esteem crashing to the floor
to turn its whole world upside down
out of your own selfishness
can not compare to the scorn that is deserving
should the depreciation
be initiated by you
and by you alone
and by you alone
only can all scorn fall
for that would be worthy of your avarice

to have your value adjusted by others
in due times of inflation and crises
but to adjust the value yourself
in search of something else that looks more valuable

oh the woe is on you



today's message was brought to you by the word : MAGNANIMOUS

Kekasih

Akan kupintal buih-buih
menjadi tali
mengikatmu

akan kuanyam gelombang-gelombang
menjadi hamparan
ranjang tidurmu

akan kutenun awan-gemawan
menjadi selendang
menudungi rambutmu

akan kujahit bayu gunung
menjadi baju
pakaian malammu

akan kupetik bintang timur
menjadi kerongsang
menyinari dadamu

akan kujolok bulan gerhana
menjadi lampu
menyuluhi rindu

akan kurebahkan matari
menjadi laut malammu
menghirup sakar madumu

Kekasih, hitunglah mimpi
yang membunuh realiti
dari syurga ilusi



Usman Awang

Sonnet XVII

I don't love you as if you were the salt-rose, topaz
or arrow of carnations that propagate fire:
I love you as certain dark things are loved,
secretly, between the shadow and the soul.

I love you as the plant that doesn't bloom and carries
hidden within itself the light of those flowers,
and thanks to your love, darkly in my body
lives the dense fragrance that rises from the earth.

I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where,
I love you simply, without problems or pride:
I love you in this way because I don't know any other way of loving

but this, in which there is no I or you,
so intimate that your hand upon my chest is my hand,
so intimate that when I fall asleep it is your eyes that close.


Pablo Neruda

funnily enough

isn't it funny how time is relative?

last night seemed so far away because you enjoyed it
and now its gone
last year seemed just like yesterday
and how difficult life was then
but then again,
comes down to what you choose in that time,
and whether or not you choose to enjoy it
or be eaten up by it.

given the choice,
which would you be?

an actor?
a pilot?
a model?
a lawyer?
an environmentalist?
a marine biologist?
....
the list goes on and on

ambitions are what they're called
to give u direction
or objectives on what to achieve
motivation to spur you on

let's be realistic here
our ambitions don't really matter
funnily enough
its what you are that matters
or more like what you've become

let's rephrase the question
if you had to choose between being
a hypocrite
or a manipulator
which would you choose?

a hypocrite
in a nutshell, not doing as you say everybody else should
just shrouded by your own misery of how difficult your standards are
that you never seem to achieve them
always falling short
of how tremendously insane it is to ask it of you
and yet ask it from others

a manipulator
one who controls all the variables
who knows what exactly he is doing and how he is doing it
but by having other people do it instead
without them knowing it
the mark is to inspire
to motivate
to encourage
to manipulate

the lesser of two evils?
is there one?
what is your definition of an evil?
one where you deceive people into thinking better of you?
one where you try to make people believe they are inadequate?
one where people are hurt?

turns out
that two evils aren't so different after all
so why choose?

today's message was brought to you by the word : DIFFERENT

maintenance

would you believe me if i said
that i'm done living dreams

that i'm done searching for that
somewhere over the rainbow
waiting for that
someday skies are blue
and the dreams that you dare to dream
really do come true

i'll wish upon a star
and wake up where the clouds are far behind me
where troubles melt like lemon drops
away above the chimney tops.



a tribute to what once was


who writes this stuff anyways?


today's message was brought to you by the word : DECIPHER