riddle me this

here's a riddle,
what's not shared but much sought after
and when shared
you'd wish it wasn't sought after?



a secret.

here's a secret
humans are the biggest form of disappointment ever

it's funny how
we like to take things into our own hands
and not believe that humans are the most complex things in the world.
how we like to believe that everything is predictable.
how we think we're always right
and how we fail to see
that beyond our linear plane of thinking
that plane that is so predictable,
so straightforward and limited,
there is another plane
of the unimaginable
the unthinkable
and that plane is what we call

naivety

we can be so naive as to think
that everybody else thinks like us
that we can think like everybody else
and find out what their next step is
to know what they are going through
and have the exact emotions run through our mind.
and arrive at our own conclusions.
now don't get me wrong
these conclusions are alright
it's when you act upon them
when you take the first step
in trying to aide a friend doesn't need aide
in trying to confront a friend that has nothing to hide.
thats when things get dodgy
whats more
the ignorant
not the naive anymore
mind you
these are people who can be so oblivious to the world around them
as to not see that they could be wrong
and not believe what the other person is saying

disappointment

yet
to those who possess
the intuition
the heart
the sensitivity
to arrive at the right conclusions

i use this words because thats exactly what it is
an unknown thing
that is ingrained
not taught
not learnt
not through experience
but given

being able to act upon their conclusions
in their words and actions
with heart and compassion
are given the honor of


sincerity



today's message was brought to you by the word : EVERYTHING

full circle

its been so long now
and so many things have changed
have you?
how far away have you steered
from your original direction?

sometimes you just don't know...
living in your crowded loneliness
you just won't know
whether what you're doing
is indeed what you want to be doing
or how you are perceived
is how you want it to be.

and depression hits you like a truck
solid and all-consuming
and you're lonely
and quiet
in a place of noise
where things are so alive
and you
just stay there
not knowing where else to go
for this is the direction you're in
and it's all you can do
just to stay above water



take a break

get some rest

and a long sleep

for when u awaken
sober and aware
you would have known
that you would have to arrive full circle
before anything changes

today's post was brought to you by the word : ALPHABET

invincible

ever had such ambitions in your mind
like you were invincible
the sky was your limit
and even then
you felt like you could go further

ever wondered if it was possible to achieve that
to just be able to achieve your goals
heck
even reach them
these ambitions that burn
that create such drive
such passion
such distinct thoughts
that stretch and twist reality
are we invincible by our own means?
or are we stuck in believing
that our ambitions are just that

and nothing more.....

you just keep thinking
this is how its going to go down
this is how its going to be
this is how i will make of it
then you're so sucked up into your own warped reality
your own ideal
your own idea of success
that should you fail to achieve it
you will fall hard
you will burn and wonder
where did it all go wrong?

the idea was there
you've had so many years to just think about your ambition
practically your whole life
and still
you can't get it right
but where does the error lie?
planning for your whole life
requires just that
your whole life
does this prove that
you're just one big
failure

to the extent
you've had your entire life to plan about something
just run your thoughts
in the million possibilities
of "how its going to go down"
and still
you're just one big
failure

no

ambitions take your entire life to plan
they're the child of your invincibility
the result of what's to come
and if you're still alive
you're still very much

vulnerable

today's message was brought to you by the word : JOYS

One Art

The art of losing isn't hard to master;
so many things seem filled with the intent
to be lost that their loss is no disaster.

Lose something every day. Accept the fluster
of lost door keys, the hour badly spent.
The art of losing isn't hard to master.

Then practice losing farther, losing faster:
places, and names, and where it was you meant
to travel. None of these will bring disaster.

I lost my mother's watch. And look! my last, or
next-to-last, of three loved houses went.
The art of losing isn't hard to master.

I lost two cities, lovely ones. And, vaster,
some realms I owned, two rivers, a continent.
I miss them, but it wasn't a disaster.

-Even losing you (the joking voice, a gesture
I love) I shan't have lied. It's evident
the art of losing's not too hard to master
though it may look like (Write it!) like disaster




- elizabeth bishop -

pheonix

here i am again

its been awhile
as i've found another way to find relief
learnt a lot of things in so little time

i'm astounded
i'm in awe
i'm petrified
and in spite of all that.....

i am grateful for all that has happened

sometimes just living life is difficult
always falling
and sometimes
you just fall so far down
that as you try to get up again
you stumble to your knees
as your kness are raw
and your palms are scraped
you will find yourself reaching out

for help

and whatever decision you make after that
whatever choices you may put your life in
however you want to jeapordize things
it is this help
that will make all the difference

the most difficult part of all
is ensuring you actually seek this help

what most of us fail to understand
is that this help has always been there
yet
we choose to scrape our knees
and bleed our palms
and at the end of it all
we still seek this help

after the storm
when the wounds are healing
and the callouses and scars have made us strong again
it just adds salt to the wound
to know
how hurt this help must have been
when we didn't first reach out for it

today's message was brought to you by the word : PALOOZAH